{"id":7767,"date":"2019-11-22T04:05:15","date_gmt":"2019-11-22T04:05:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.internationaljournalists.org\/?p=7767"},"modified":"2020-04-22T20:52:30","modified_gmt":"2020-04-22T20:52:30","slug":"emre-soncandan-mektup-var-uc-bardak-cay-hazirlarim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/internationaljournalists.org\/tr\/emre-soncandan-mektup-var-uc-bardak-cay-hazirlarim\/","title":{"rendered":"Emre Soncan’dan mektup var: “…\u00fc\u00e7 bardakl\u0131k \u00e7ay haz\u0131rlar\u0131m…”"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Gazeteci Ahmet D\u00f6nmez<\/a> meslekta\u015f\u0131, tutuklu gazeteci Emre Soncan’\u0131n mektubunu “sonbahar mektubu geldi” diyerek payla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emre Soncan’\u0131n mektubunun tamam\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cHapishane, Ya\u015far Kemal, Hasan Ali Topta\u015f\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mahpusluktan \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe kaz\u0131lan en estetik t\u00fcnellerdir romanlar\u2026 \u0130nsan\u0131 hapishanenin ac\u0131kl\u0131 tekd\u00fcze kurgusundan al\u0131r, kimi zaman sevin\u00e7li kimi zaman h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc d\u00fcnyalara; a\u015fklar\u0131n, sava\u015flar\u0131n, galibiyetlerin, ma\u011flubiyetlerin, zenginli\u011fin, yoksunlu\u011fun ve yoksullu\u011fun, ayr\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131n, vuslatlar\u0131n has\u0131l\u0131 ger\u00e7ekli\u011fin tam ortas\u0131na b\u0131rak\u0131verir.. Benim gibi pek uzuncad\u0131r tel kafeslerin, dikenli tellerin alt\u0131nda, be\u015f ad\u0131m havaland\u0131rmada d\u00f6n\u00fcp d\u00f6n\u00fcp duranlar i\u00e7in cezaevi hayat\u0131 kurgu, romanlar ise ger\u00e7e\u011fin ta kendisidir.. Hapis yatm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan m\u0131d\u0131r, T\u00fcrk\u00e7e\u2019yi kullanmaktaki b\u00fcy\u00fck ustal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan m\u0131d\u0131r ya da ger\u00e7e\u011fi hayale, hayali ger\u00e7e\u011fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrme becerisinden midir bilmiyorum ama buradaki okumalar\u0131mda Ya\u015far Kemal\u2019in yeri ayr\u0131d\u0131r; hay\u0131r ayr\u0131 de\u011fildir, apayr\u0131d\u0131r.. Soyar \u00f6nce karakterleri, hikayesini \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak anlat\u0131r\u2026 \u00d6yle yal\u0131nd\u0131r ki dil, bu sadelik hali sayfalar ilerledik\u00e7e m\u00fcthi\u015f bir edebi lezzet b\u0131rak\u0131r zihnimde, muhayyilemde\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

         Tanyeri Horozlar\u0131\u2019nda iri seyrek damlalar topra\u011fa pat pat d\u00fc\u015ferken, Poyraz kendisini, merdivenleri nas\u0131l indi\u011fini bilmeyerek d\u0131\u015far\u0131 atar\u2026 Toprak kokusunun i\u00e7ine dalar, kam\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa kadar y\u00fcr\u00fcr, d\u00f6ner, biraz durup d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckten sonra Zehra\u2019n\u0131n evinin \u00f6n\u00fcne gelir\u2026 Merdivene aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 atacakken geriye d\u00f6ner, denizin k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na iner\u2026  \u0130\u00e7ine g\u00fcn do\u011fmu\u015ftur, i\u00e7i ayd\u0131nl\u0131kt\u0131r\u2026 Karanl\u0131ktayken \u0131\u015f\u0131klar i\u00e7inde y\u00fczer, ayaklar\u0131 yerden kesilmi\u015ftir.. Ya\u011fmur h\u0131\u015f\u0131mlan\u0131ncaya kadar b\u00f6yle ayd\u0131nl\u0131klar, sevin\u00e7ler, mutluluklar, sarho\u015fluklar i\u00e7inde y\u00fcr\u00fcr\u2026 Daha do\u011frusu y\u00fcr\u00fcr\u00fcz\u2026 Paragraf\u0131n sonuna do\u011fru ben de Poyraz\u2019\u0131n yan\u0131nday\u0131md\u0131r art\u0131k\u2026 Onun akl\u0131nda Zehra, benim akl\u0131mda bir ba\u015fka kad\u0131n\u2026 Sonra birden bulutlar kayna\u015f\u0131r, ortal\u0131k gittik\u00e7e karar\u0131r\u2026 Bir g\u00f6k g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcd\u00fcr kopan, \u015fim\u015fekler \u00e7akar, y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131mlar sa\u011f\u0131l\u0131r\u2026 D\u00fcnya, kur\u015fun ge\u00e7irmez bir karanl\u0131\u011fa g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcr\u2026 Bir s\u00fcre sonra g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcndeki g\u00fcmb\u00fcrt\u00fclerle birlikte ya\u011fmur kapkaranl\u0131k ya\u011fmaya ba\u015flar Poyraz\u2019\u0131n adas\u0131na\u2026 Sadece Poyraz\u2019\u0131n adas\u0131na m\u0131, tabii ki hay\u0131r\u2026 Sanki ko\u011fu\u015fun avlusunun lambalar\u0131 s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr aniden, etraf siyaha kesmi\u015ftir\u2026 Pat pat beton zemine vurmaya ba\u015flar damlalar, sonra gelir gelir cam\u0131ma \u00e7arparlar\u2026 Vururlar kendilerini camlara, ko\u011fu\u015fun i\u00e7ine girmek istercesine\u2026 Bir \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k haliyle\u2026 \u00d6nce Poyraz s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam olur adada, sonra ben tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa suya batar\u0131m ko\u011fu\u015fun i\u00e7inde\u2026 Adeta damlalardan bir adam olurum, \u00f6yle hissederim ki ya\u011fmuru, \u0131slakl\u0131\u011f\u0131, yap\u0131\u015f yap\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131; aln\u0131mdan bir damlac\u0131k t\u0131p diye d\u00fc\u015fer sayfan\u0131n \u00fczerine\u2026 Poyraz\u2019\u0131n, Zehra\u2019n\u0131n \u00fczerine\u2026 Onlar bilmez lakin oraday\u0131md\u0131r\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

          Ayn\u0131 eserde, Ni\u015fanc\u0131\u2019n\u0131n hatunu Sultan\u2019\u0131 kom\u015fusu Zarife\u2019nin g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ya da g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc iddia etti\u011fi r\u00fcyalar\u0131 hayra yorar\u2026 Cepheden \u00e7oktan k\u00fcnyeleri gelmi\u015f o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131n bir g\u00fcn eve d\u00f6neceklerini d\u00fc\u015fler de  durur\u2026 Ama gelmezler\u2026 Mahpus da \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe yorar t\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015fleri, bekler de bekler; \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck nazl\u0131 sevgilidir halbuki, bekletir, \u00e7atlatana kadar bekletir..<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

          Bir de Hasan Ali Topta\u015f\u2019\u0131n insanlar\u0131, tabiat\u0131, e\u015fyalar\u0131, duygular\u0131, renkleri, sesleri hatta, b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc konu\u015fturmas\u0131 atar beni demir parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n pek \u00e7ok\u00e7a \u00f6tesine\u2026 Ku\u015flar Yas\u0131na Gider\u2019de anlat\u0131c\u0131, en sevdi\u011fim \u015fehirde, Mithatpa\u015fa Caddesi\u2019nden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p S\u0131hhiye\u2019ye do\u011fru ko\u015far, sonra gerisingeri Mithatpa\u015fa\u2019ya d\u00f6ner\u2026 Ko\u015far ko\u015far ard\u0131ndan Y\u00fcksel Caddesi\u2019ne, oradan da p\u0131rr Zafer \u00c7ar\u015f\u0131s\u0131\u2019na\u2026 O b\u00f6yle Ankara\u2019n\u0131n caddelerinde, sokaklar\u0131nda savrulurken, ben de anlat\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131nda kan ter i\u00e7inde kal\u0131r\u0131m\u2026 Bu arada \u00fczerimize kar ya\u011f\u0131yordur hep, arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bulam\u0131yoruzdur ve a\u011flamak \u00fczereyizdir\u2026 Derken o, babas\u0131n\u0131 bulur telefonun ucundaki sesin tarif etti\u011fi yerde, ben ise ko\u011fu\u015fa d\u00f6n\u00fcp alelacele ailemi, sevdiklerimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcm\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

           Anlat\u0131c\u0131 bir ara Denizli\u2019ye, kasabadaki ailesinin yan\u0131na gider k\u0131z\u0131 ve e\u015fiyle\u2026 Onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rmeye day\u0131s\u0131 gelir, fil \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaki kanepeye ba\u011fda\u015f kurar day\u0131, cebinden tespihini \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 omuzlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na g\u00f6mer ve etrafa sa\u00e7\u0131lan sar\u0131 \u015f\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131lar e\u015fli\u011finde taneleri yava\u015f yava\u015f \u00e7ekmeye ba\u015flar\u2026 Bu \u015f\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131lar, hapishane koridorundaki n\u00f6bet\u00e7ilerin tespihlerinin \u015f\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131lar\u0131yla \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f\u0131verir\u2026 Birbirlerine toslayan tespih tanelerinin \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131\u011f\u0131 rahats\u0131z edici sesi hapiste dinleyece\u011fime, hemen Be\u015fparmak Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n dibindeki o kasabaya kanatlan\u0131r, fil \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc kadar a\u011f\u0131r kanepeye, day\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na ba\u011fda\u015f kurup ili\u015fiveririm\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

          Mesela anlat\u0131c\u0131, plakas\u0131ndan kirli buzlar sarkan, camlar\u0131 bu\u011fulu belediye otob\u00fcs\u00fcne bindi\u011finde hemen arkas\u0131nday\u0131md\u0131r; Denizli-Ankara aras\u0131nda kendi arabas\u0131yla mekik dokurken, dikiz aynas\u0131ndan g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc d\u00fc\u015fsel at\u0131n \u00fczerindeyimdir\u2026 Hatta anlat\u0131c\u0131, ayakl\u0131 elektrik sobalar\u0131yla \u0131s\u0131t\u0131lan kuytu bir k\u00f6\u015feye oturup \u00fc\u00e7 bardak \u00e7ay i\u00e7erken zaman ge\u00e7sin diye, ama ayn\u0131 zamanda zaman da ge\u00e7mek bilmezken; \u00e7ay ka\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n barda\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6\u015felerine \u00e7arp\u0131p \u00e7arp\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 tiz sesi duyar gibi olurum, ne duyar gibi olmas\u0131, bal gibi de iyi duyar\u0131m\u2026 \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ayaklar\u0131m\u0131, ayakl\u0131 elektrik sobas\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131na uzatm\u0131\u015f, ellerimi birbirine s\u00fcrt\u00fcp avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 hohluyorumdur \u00e7oktan\u2026 Tabii tam o esnada ko\u011fu\u015f kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n mazgal\u0131 demir g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcyle a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fcy\u00fc bozulur, haz\u0131r b\u00fcy\u00fc bozulmu\u015fken de ben kalkar, elektrikli \u00e7ayc\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fc\u011fmesine sitemkar bir fiske vurur, kendime \u00fc\u00e7 bardakl\u0131k \u00e7ay haz\u0131rlar\u0131m\u2026<\/em>\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emre Soncan<\/strong> Silivri Hapishanesi                                                                                                                                               Sonbahar, 2019 <\/em> <\/p>\n\n\n\n